Transition

I am trying to figure out where to go with my life in the next few years. Every time I think I have a plan laid out, something kind of comes up and forces me to switch gears a bit, shift my focus, put things off and do other things first. It just seems like there is a lot to accomplish just to gain a little bit of progress toward my goals.

It took me 2 1/2 years to get back to Ithaca. Honestly, it could have been worse. In the last few months leading up to my final move to Ithaca, things fell into place like dominos in a line. I moved down, I got my shit done, I graduated. Now I'm back... and the whole thing is so anti-climatic! That's great, I graduated, and I even got my CSCS certification (for those who don't know, that's Certified Strength and Conditioning Specialist). But, it's still not what I want to be doing. Okay, well at least I can move on to grad school for Physical Therapy, right? Wrong. At minimum, I still have 5 classes of pre-req's to take, so I can't enter the program until the fall of 2007 (you can't start in the winter).

I dunno, I know this post seems kind of down, which sucks for the readers because I don't post very often anyway. It'd be nice if I had something funny to say, but most of my funny stories are usually the "you had to be there" kind anyway. I guess the point is that I'm endlessly frustrated with the entire process of getting to where I want to be. Is it going to be this way forever? Once I finally achieve what I am striving for scholastically and in my career, will I be content? Or will I want to continuing striving for more, or instead have some other area in my life that I am not content with? Is this the nature of life? I mean, I probably shouldn't get to a point where I'm content to not better myself anymore - I should always be working toward the betterment of myself in all facets of life. I guess I need to shelve my impatience and enjoy the journey. There are just so many things I want to do with my life, but there are all these steps in between that are so tedious...

So in the meantime I guess I have definitely enjoyed myself. Aruba, Killington, this weekend just relaxing and watching movies, next weekend back up to the mountains, and maybe take in some live music somewhere soon - The Push just informed me that Ryan Montbleau is having a CD release party soon, any takers?? I guess I'm just shaking things up a bit and trying to have some fun while doing it - I have 10 Red Sox games on the docket, so there's always that to look forward to. I mean, shit, I'm 24 years old. I think, in a way, I'm having a bit of a quarter-life crisis - worried about the future in so many ways, from the personal to the professional... but maybe I just need to throw caution to the wind and have some fun with it all! I'm always so worried about so many things - money, responsibilities, all that crap that comes along with being an "adult"... Balance. Maybe I just need to find out how to balance all that adult shit with still being the kid I want to be. If anyone has any suggestions how to make that happen, send them my way...