Born to Run

My last day of work before I go back to school full-time is 5 weeks from today. That's frightening. I can't believe that I have been out of school for over 2 1/2 years, and I can believe even less that I'm finally returning to finish. What a long, frustrating process it has been. Honestly, at this point Ithaca hasn't even accepted my credits that I transferred in, nor have they given me a financial aid package - it's JULY people, I start classes in a month and a half!! If one or both of those falls through, that's it, I have to withdraw and I can't go back. I have to be able to finish in one semester, which I can't do without those credits transferring in, and I have to be able to pay for it, which I can't do without a generous financial aid package. So despite having a going-away party planned, despite having an apartment in Ithaca ready for me, despite moving out of my Boston apartment in 3 weeks, there is still a lot that is up in the air. That doesn't sit well with me - I am a planner, and I like to have everything put in place before I go diving into something.

Despite the setbacks and the uncertainties... I'm really excited. How can I not be? I've been working toward this moment every day for the past 2 1/2 years! It sucks that I have to leave 2 steady jobs here. It sucks that I have to leave my friends and an apartment and a relatively steady life to return to utter chaos (especially since I have no idea what I'm doing with myself AFTER I graduate in December). But, these are necessary evils and I will gladly face them. Heck, I'm only gone from here for 4 months, and I will be back for 2 Sox games in Sept, and I get 3 days off for Thanksgiving, etc. It will be okay.

I'm just a creature of habit. So giving up my daily routine is like turning my entire world upside-down. I think maybe it will be good for me! Difficult, but therapeutic.

Speaking of therapy, I have to get back to work. Some co-workers just showed up, and we need to discuss last night's loss and the spate of recent trades... oh yeah, and some stuff about some patients (at least when my boss is hovering nearby). As so many have said before, I gotta just "Keep on keepin' on."